If u care about my life... ([-s4m-]CQC)

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We talked ingame via irc and such.
if anyone wants to read my life story, read on, its 100% real. dont make jokes.




My Life
I lived a pretty normal life until i was about 4 or 5.
On my 5th birthday i knew something wasnt right. my dad had been acting weird , like really weird. I was scared because hes a muscualr
guy and yeah.
so when my mom went out to get my cake for my party my dad decided to do something he thought would be funny. He picked me up like
he always does to play airplane (by the back of the shirt and the waiste band) and then i relaised i was inside, so i was like. uh, what are u
doing dadd and then he through me. Through me stright through a wall, my head just missing the studs in the wall.
I was really distrot and confused and in alot of pain. My dad was laughing. I didnt know why, he said something i cant remeber anymore but
i didnt like the tone of it. There i was, stuck half way in the wall, one half on one side the other half on the other. My dad walked over to my face
side and did something ill never forget. He pulled down his pants and pissed in my face. I was there helpless while
he pissed all over me. I am scared from that to this day. I remember the phone ringing and hearing my moms voice. she was wondering what
kind of cake i wanted, at this point, i didnt want cake, i just wanted to get out, but i couldnt. my dad knew my mom would be home soon so he
pulled me out of the wall
and smacked me in the face a few times, he told me taht if i told my mother about this, i would never forget it. From this time until i was around
7 or 8 i would experience beatings once or twice a month, i didnt really think it was that abnomral because some friends i had were also beatn
and they didnt know either.
but when i was 9 or so. The beatings got worse. They turned into full out punches, pushes down stairs, breaking my bones, making me bleed
and they happend at least twice a week. At this point, i knew it wasnt normal and i my mom also found out. when my dad knew that she knew,
he flipped out, insted of beating me that day, he beat her, HARD. I couldnt not look away, i was too stunned to see what it actually
looks like. I couldnt belive it was actually happening. The next day my dad told me that im gonna suffer the concequences of telling her that i
was being beat. I didnt tell her though. My mom knew it wasnt safe for me anymore and that i could possibly get killed by him one day, so she
filled for divroce againt my father. This was a little hole in the clouds for me, i was happy. I was glad that i could finnaly get away.
a little snippit of info, i got renegade around now which is why i was opening up to lots of people about it, anyways. The divorce was very messy,
i had to testify againt them both in court at my young age,it was really something i didnt want to do, it was really hard. I was really upset and mad
all the time at this that i took it out on my friends (not physcially) but bad enough for them to start dodging my calls and evetly stop being
my friend, which was really difficult for me. at this point i was banned for bighead when i was trying to help the server loooool. My mom moved out
and was calling me a few times telling me to hold on it will be okay. i kept hoping she was right. My dad decided that when i went to bed, he would
go on my computer and fu** around with it, change my facebook status and msn and stuff remove programs and everything, my life was
compelty fu** up at this time. I had no idea what to do. My mom told me that she was coming to get me and that i needed to get some stuff
togeather and sneak out, but i had to be carefull. I got my stuff togeather the next day and i was ready to go that night, unlucky for me, my dad
saw my stuff and knew something was up. he pretended he didnt see anything though. since i was sneaking out that night, he pretened to go to
sleep
but he never did. he was faking it. When i left the house he gave me a few miuntues to start walking, i called my mom from the pay phone and she
was right there with the car wating for me to cross the street. i was so excited to see her and she was too that she crossed teh street one moement
too soon. out of nowhere, a drunk driver collided with her infront of my very eyes. it was really hard for me to watch, obviously. I remember hearing
her scream out and cry for me to do something but i couldnt move, my body wouldnt let me. I was so shocked. i rememeber her calling me a
worthless piece of sh*t for not helping her. at this time my dad found me and examied the seen, he started to laugh. he said somethings i will never
forget and never repeat. I was so scared for my saftey that i wanted to kill myself that night, i tried too but i didnt know what i was doing. so i failed.when
my dad saw that i tired, he started to laugh and told me he could to it for me and then left the room. My principal saw that i had bruises and talked
to me about them, he decided to pull me out of school they were so bad. I was home schooled by some poloe lady that came in to teach me everything they
thought i needed to know, but they didnt teach me survival at all. I was stuck with my dad for a long time and i tried to esacpe it many times.
nothing seemed to work. -lost my train of thought :@ - uhm. ill just go to where i am now. My dad decided to annouce to me that i was gonna have
a broken leg, i was confused, he punched me in the face and i was knocked out, he then jumped on my shin bone and almost compely snapped it. I woke up
from my knock out in a pain i will never forget, he told me that he wouldnt drive me to the hopspital, i had to walk, great. after spending a few
days in there i came home and got my stuff togheater and i took off to a friends place (1 of 7 friends i had at this point) They accpeted me with
open arms. I was livign there for a while going from friends house to friends house until a few weeks ago. I was going to another persons house
when my dad pulled up in his car beside me. he told me to get in now or i would regret it. i didnt move, he got out and through a bat at me, i fell
down and he
shoved me in the car. I am now living with my dad again and i am really in need of knowing what to do next.
I am stuck paying rent for my dad, electical,heating,plumbing all that, paying for my school,food everything.
Awhile ago i was told that my mother did not infact die, she in a coma and the signs dont look good. I have to decide to pull the plug or to let her go.
That is my life up until this day.


Thanks for reading

defjam wrote:

omg...ur life story has touched me.....im willing to help anyway i can...just hang in there for 2 more years...

idk how I missed this on the forums tbh, but defjam said what I would've said..I read it and it really did touch me..hope things turn out good 4 you bro.

here is my advice. find the bat that your dad hit u with tell him your guna break his leg then swing bat.

I don't know how you have gone this long w/o beating his ass if ur scared hell came back at you just catch him off guard with the bat and then take his keys leave the house then abandon the car somewhere and start a new life where you won't have to deal with someone as low as him

^ his did is muscular he said

anant said he could take his dad down but can't legally.

Sooo you let your dad beat you? I mean if my dad was beating me I wud set up a recorder and then I wud beat his ass and let him lie to the cops then show the cops your video.

Maj1n wrote:

im meant to care why?

rly maj1n rly?

yur ment 2 care cuz its called respect and sympathy

yo ant man its hard

my moms a drunk but i cured w by getting her 2 smoke madd weed w me ;p

any way man id join the army or call dys

rly they will take u outa ur home but man its a hell of a lot better than getting ur ass beat man kick him in the balls and than just fu** his ass up man .
im 15 and i went 2 juvi twice
its alot better than what ur going through trust me .
hang int here man ull find a solution dw

I'm not a caring person. He's could easily tell the police about his abuse, but he hasen't. So really i have no sympathy for him.

Cuz hes scared or sumtin i forgot what he said im fking stonned man

but dude cmon he gets beat his mom in a fkin coma u should care.
ur not a caring person man u never gonna get anypiece of ass .

holy fu** thats some messed up sh*t lad and its well sad ... u need to get away man the longer u stay with ur da the more im gonna think ur dumb for not going.

if u av money then get the fu** away from him

and yeah maj1n is right but cud av worded it differently

fu** being scared, you either man up n tell the police or be a pussy and take that beating. simple.

NightStalker wrote:

here is my advice. find the bat that your dad hit u with tell him your guna break his leg then swing bat.

I don't know how you have gone this long w/o beating his ass if ur scared hell came back at you just catch him off guard with the bat and then take his keys leave the house then abandon the car somewhere and start a new life where you won't have to deal with someone as low as him

sounds like a movie rly

lmao at M4G's sig.

yeah, his story does sound almost unreal. but that stuff happens all the time. Its sad really

Anant has told me this story many times, and came to me many times, I feel like I have been there for you quite a bit Anant, and you should know that we will always be there for you, we as in the s4m clan, if anyone in the clan would ever turn the other cheek away from you, I would be there for you. We have been good buddies for a good while and I know that you can make it though this, all you have to do is believe in yourself bud.

And I know that you do. :)

he still needs to man up.

uh, how...
thanks for all the support everyone, excpt maj1n.
means alot to me, thank you lovely s4m

anant die he just snap 1 day or do you know the cause of this?

I actually agree with Majin on this one. Hell, it's a sad story and my life might also seem like a movie but you can't just sit there crying - get up and do something about it. As Majin said, take the beating or do something, don't sit and whine about it.

kinda dumb that u post this to random peeps and no to police or safe dudes. enjoy it or go tell someone who will do sumfing

I just wanted to inform some of my friends here. if you dont care, why even post?

Yeah, don't post here to be a douche you guys, we are a helping s4m community/clan, we are here to work together, not only in Ren, but on forums and such, tbh all of you that are being fu** retarded faggots about this are breaking the -clan code of conduct- in a way that you are insulting him calling him a pussy and sh*t, i realize that I have just done the same, but that is only because it is in reason, you all should be ashamed of yourself for being heartless bastards about another persons situation.

i agree at that note im going to lock topic


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